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This manual is written with the purpose of both helping other people understand how the kitten works, feels, and thinks, and helping them reflect on their own needs, their own desires, and their own self.
It is not exhaustive, and its contents can be extended or modified, but it'll try to be as much as possible. It's also thought of as "general advice", and thus some of its contents might not apply to some beings who the kitten considers more close.
It can serve to better know how to approach the kitten in a variety of contexts. That being said, it tries to show how they are as a whole, on a more general level, and thus reading even those sections not applicable to the reader's intents is encouraged.
The kitten uses they/them pronouns, but she/her is acceptable too (and used in some settings).
Ways to refer to them:
Most feminine apellatives are also okay and are sometimes used by themselves.
The kitten can be spoken to in English, Catalan, and Spanish, in that order of preference. They are also learning German, being spoken in that language is appreciated as well (it helps them get used to it), but it'll be difficult for them to be able to seamlessly have a conversation.
It is okay to approach the kitten and say hi at events and similar occasions. Please keep in mind that they are not very good at recognizing faces, so they might struggle to remember who are they talking to.
Due of special caution regarding skin-to-skin transmitted infections, and depending on the specific circumstances, they might prefer to avoid skin contact during events. This is not indicative of anything, and sometimes has to do more with the amount of people they've already been in contact with, in order to control the overall risk exposure.
They are very bad at following through with chat messages. It is common for them to end up stacking pending messages from different beings for days. This should not be taken personally, it happens with everyone and they're trying to improve in that regard.
The kitten has no known food allergies and they're neither vegan nor vegetarian, although they avoid consuming meat, and prefer soy milk instead of cow milk. They are flexible with eating schedules and plans, but they appreciate being able to have something sweet for breakfast a bit after waking up.
They will be okay with both sleeping alone, and sleeping with their host. They might be okay with sleeping alongside a third-party (i.e.: their host's significant other), but might prefer not to if they feel it might not be enjoyed by said third-party, or if the relationship is too cold.
They require a place to change their diapers (usually the bathroom) and a place to dispose of them (everyone has a very small trash can in the bathroom and the kitten changes regularly throughout the day, so that won't work). The kitten considers themselves not deserving of privacy, so they will change in private only out of understanding it might be uncomfortable for anyone who sees it.
Access to a shower with warm water is appreciated during all times of the year.
The kitten is currently wearing a tracking device, with its location being accessible in real time by their Miss. If you ever invite them to stay at your place, they'll make sure to discuss this with you, making sure that you agree with them keeping it on during their stay (and thus letting their Miss also know where that is located), or turning it off otherwise.
At the moment, the kitten has three girlfriends. There's a few other beings who they are very comfortable with and consider specially close, while keeping it casual.
They are generally affectionate and might be open to cuddling or even hooking up, but that is handled on a case by case basis. Due to their limited time availability, this is kept casual and will have a limited degree of commitment. This can be preferably discussed in order to be aware of everyone's needs and expectations.
The kitten is in service to their Miss, and they are extremely grateful to her for having the opportunity to do so. They consider themselves meant to serve her and tend to her desire, and will obey their Miss without any regard for what others might think. They always try to make their Miss' wishes a core part of their thought process, and consider her deserving of the utmost respect and care.
The kitten is not afraid of making mistakes in their service to their Miss. They will always try to avoid them, but they understand that perfection isn't part of what is expected from them. They understand that those mistakes might sometimes carry consequences with them, and while that might at times be scary for them, they know that their Miss will always have the best in mind for them. Anything she decides must be good for them, and they'll embrace it.
Some of the things that are considered basic rights for others are considered privileges or just inadequate for them.
They consider themselves undeserving of privacy and dignity, accepting just whichever amount their Miss decides to grant them.
They consider wearing clothes a privilege and unfitting for them, usually only doing so out of respect for those present. If you'd be comfortable with them being naked, please, communicate it to them, and if the temperature allows it, they'll take them off.
When possible, they prefer to sit on the floor, as they see that (and being in physically lower places in general) more adequate for themselves.
The extent by which they embrace all of this, and more importantly, by which they let their Miss influence their mind and behavior, can reach basic aspects of their life, to the point of, for example, avoiding the upper deck on trains because their Miss once hinted at that being inadequate for them.
The kitten will always welcome and be grateful about all this being actively acknowledged by others. However, they ask to be mindful about the nuances when interacting with them. They are still not everyone's submissive, and they are still deserving of respect. They only consider themselves inferior to their Miss.
The kitten wears a black synthetic-leather collar, with a ring both in front and in the back, and a bell attached to the back. The collar is locked by their Miss, who keeps the key.
People tend to quickly jump to conclusions about it, sometimes not very accurate. Usually it is perceived as an inherently sexual item, or that its main purpose is to have a leash attached to it, or to be grabbed by it, but that is not the case.
Touching it or the bell, trying to pull them by it, or attaching anything to it might be welcome, but asking before doing so is required. Being allowed to do so may be interpreted as standing consent for any future occasions.
The kitten wears diapers as their only underwear, and wets them regularly. They do this because they like them and finds them more comfortable, but also because it makes them feel more devoid of dignity to voluntarily give up control over something so basic and deliberately piss themselves in front of everyone, and thus more appropriate for them.
Not being in diapers, or being expected to make it to the bathroom is very uncomfortable for them, and thus discouraged.
Playfully poking at the topic is welcome, especially when done in a mean and patronizing way, or gently reinforcing the idea that they can't be trusted to not piss themselves. Doing so will make the kitten show themselves embarrassed and flustered about it, but they ultimately understand that they do need their diapers and accept that. Avoid acting in a cruel or genuinely hostile way regarding that topic.
They may enjoy participating in dynamics like having to report the instant they use their diapers, or having their diapers checked for when they need to get changed. They have shown to get very flustered when other beings comment on it.
Asking the kitten to remove/stop wearing their diapers might trigger a conversation about whether you are trying to make them wet themselves.
The kitten usually doesn't stop wearing diapers even when they anticipate the possibility of ending up having sex with someone. If the situation requires it, they'll quickly clean themselves up in whichever way is available. One should let the kitten know if this is an issue to them, although this doesn't ensure it'll be accommodated.
They don't mind if their diapers are touched or paid attention to during sex. For the kitten they're just their underwear, but they understand they might be a source of curiosity or even enjoyment, so one should bring it up if playing with that is desired.
The kitten is vers, and most of the times will be very happy to either top, bottom, or just switch positions as they go. Due to having been on estradiol for a long time, they might require the use of their strap-on to penetrate other beings, but sometimes can do without it.
Open, honest communication and avoiding expectations is very much encouraged when it comes to sex (although also when it comes to anything other than sex), and is the way the kitten acts. Just telling the kitten that you want to fuck might potentially work, but be prepared for a negative answer, and don't insist. Be also open about what you desire specifically, and ask for it.
They have a dick, and are okay with most language to refer to it. They are happy to use it in most ways.
Condoms are required for any kind of penetration, including oral. STI testing is performed regularly for VIH, Hep. B+C, and Syphilis.
The most effective way to stimulate them is by rubbing the spot on their dick where the frenulum is, and is how they'll usually do it if asked to masturbate. Lubricant is required for this. Magic Wand-style toys can be helpful for this, and can even be used over the kitten's diapers and clothes if ever needed, but doing it with one's fingers is specially enjoyed too.
Anal sex is very much enjoyed and encouraged too, especially with fingers. They can usually take bigger sizes without much issue. This will make it easier for them to reach orgasms, stimulation should continue during that, and can continue afterwards if needed (and it will be appreciated). Usually, fast and deep strokes are very much preferred, as well as roughness in general.
Orgasms are enjoyed and sometimes sought, but they are not the center nor the objective of their sexuality. Pressuring or rushing them to come is highly discouraged and will make the encounter a lot less enjoyed. For the kitten, good sex usually ends by exhaustion, and not by an orgasm.
They are inevitably noisy when they come. If the situation requires quietness, assistance to avoid making too much noise will be needed and appreciated. Just covering their mouth will help, putting a couple of fingers inside their mouth for them to suck while coming will help and also be enjoyed. Prior consent is not required for this, and can be done at their companion's discretion.
Fucking in hard surfaces, like the floor, is welcome. It makes movement feel more intense and the whole experience more rough, which makes the kitten feel good. It also can make for nice marks in some places of one's skin.
The kitten likes to top from time to time, but when they do, they prefer to avoid for it to be seen as something that "elevates them" in any way. They like to embrace their own image as a pathetic and submissive top, and they appreciate when they get to do that in a way that affirms that. Understanding their own horniness and need to fuck someone as something humiliating, or even further, considering being fucked by them as something degrading, is something that can be discussed and appreciated.
Referencing the kitten's littleness/ageplay during sex is a red line, and will potentially cause the encounter to be cut short.
The kitten is a very kinky being, and will be happy to participate in a lot of weird fun stuff. Some of that stuff can be paired with sex, but still, they are two different and not necessarily connected things.
They are into D/s and similar dynamics, and are very much a sub. They consider themselves meant to submit and surrender control, and it makes them extremely comfortable to have someone who they can trust enough to follow directions from, knowing that, even without being able to understand them, they are ultimately for their own good. Right now, they submit to their Miss, but they would be willing to submit to other beings as well, at least in a casual way.
The kitten is very obedient, or at least they try to, but they still enjoy some of the acts usually reserved as punishments. They like having their position as someone who is meant to listen and do as told reinforced.
Humiliation and degradation, as part of D/s play, is generally appreciated by the kitten, even in public. It is, however, something that shouldn't come from a place of cruelty, but as something based on trust and desire to shape the kitten's image of themselves.
They are into some forms of pain, especially the ones associated with impact play. In the event of a beating being administered to the kitten, increasing the intensity of the pain progressively, as opposed to immediately escalating, would be appreciated, as well as enable them to end up withstanding a harsher beating.
The kitten likes playing with feet, they enjoy licking them, and sometimes even biting them. The feet themselves don't do much for them, it has more to do with the connotations and the power play associated to it.
They enjoy the feeling of liquid wax dripping over their back and their chest. They have a good tolerance to that kind of pain, while also finding it sensorially very satisfying.
They are very very much into pee, and especially, into watching other beings wet their clothes, or being made to do that themselves. It is their biggest soft spot, and they take pleasure from the extreme feeling of humiliation and embarrassment it causes them. They do that from time to time, sometimes even in public (without involving non-consenting third-parties). They also enjoy being soaked in piss, their own or someone else's, ideally in some degrading way.